Further to my previous post about having a cunning plan, I did it. I signed up for the Diabetes UK One Million Steps Challenge. Just a reminder that it starts on 1 July 2019 and runs through to 30 September 2019. During that time, I have to achieve one million steps which equates to about 10,000 per day. Yikes. What have I done?
Just a reminder that in now way am I underestimating how much of a challenge this will be for me. On a lot of days, I barely get to 1,000 steps so aiming for ten times that amount every single day is going to be hard. Really hard.
There are going to be days that I just don’t want to do anything at all when the BPD and bipolar have got their grip on me. I know that. I’m expecting that. Those are the days that I need to really dig deep and try and push through it all. I can’t let the charity down, my Dad down or my friends who have diabetes as well. I also, desperately, want to get to a better place mentally and I’m really hoping that this will help kick start that process.
I’m fed up with being in the rut that I have found myself in since Dave and Alexis got married. I’m absolutely fed up to the back teeth with being angry about that; being angry at Alexis for committing the ultimate betrayal of girl code. I’m just fed up with being angry. I can’t handle being angry and I need a new outlet for trying to process that. I’m hoping that the walking will help and maybe ease some of that anger. It’s not a cure all but I really want it to be a start.
There will, of course, be updates throughout the challenge. I am absolutely not going to put my starting weight out in the public domain but I will let you know if I lose any weight along the way. Fingers crossed for that one.
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